The Marcupial Prisoner

Life in prison wasn’t easy for a kangaroo. The ceiling of his cell wasn’t tall enough for him to hop in, so Bobby had to bounce idly on the tips of his heels. The only place he was free to hop was the prison yards, where he was routinely made a mockery of. The other inmates, intoxicated on humorous notions of a boxing kangaroo, forced Bobby to participate in organized fights. Outcries to the guards fell on deaf ears, as many of them had a stake in the gambling ring that had formed; the others were indifferent.

There was nowhere within the confines of the prison for Bobby to graze, and the meals were ill-suited for his herbivorous diet. He had become weak and frail due to his malnutrition and regular fights, and began to wonder if he’d ever live to see the day of his release.

The thought of his joeys was all that kept Bobby’s will alive. It had been years since he was taken from them, but he was confident that his children would be exactly where he had left them.

“One hundred seventy-five paces north; three cobblestones and a pine bush mark the spot,” he would say to Old-timer, the only prisoner who would listen to or show any sympathy for the kangaroo.

“That’s where your boys will be waiting, because a kangaroo always keeps its word,” Old-timer would add, finishing Bobby’s oft-repeated thought. Old-timer was serving life for a crime he had never disclosed to anyone on the grounds. He had a crooked nose that looked as if it might come off if pulled, a skinny frame covered in saggy white skin that could be molded like dough.

On the eve of his release, Bobby was bouncing restlessly in his cell when Old-timer came by, ushered by two stone-faced guards.

“Been savin’ these for you,” he whispered as he passed, sliding an emptied marble-pouch of peas between the bars.

The next morning, a pair of guards locked arms with Bobby and led him through a receding iron gate and past the prison walls, where they let him go with a jerk and turned back toward the walls in silence. Bobby didn’t take a moment to relish in his freedom. He looked to the sun to gather his bearings and hopped northward, carefully counting his paces.

By pace one-hundred-and-sixty-five it became clear to Bobby that his children were not where he had left them. He approached the vicinity slowly, cupping his battered hands toward the sky and yelling his children’s names. It wasn’t as he had left it: the pine bush was slanted and jagged, the grass around it was yellowed and flattened.

“Robby! Bobby Jr.!” he cried to the heavens. No response.

Again, Bobby wasted little time meddling. He hopped northward, leaving the bush behind, declaring: “I’ll hop around the world to find my boys, if that’s what it takes.”

And a kangaroo always keeps its word, so hop Bobby did. He hopped over green grass and dead grass, tall grass and short. He hopped over deserts and sand dunes, puddles and bridges. Over skittering reptiles and colonies of ants. When he reached the ocean, he waited for a boat to come to the bay. He’d jump on the boat and hop in place until he had crossed the ocean, because he said he’d hop around the world, so hop he did.

After a year of hopping and searching to no avail, Bobby was nearing the pine bush where he had began his journey. His arms and legs had grown lean and muscular, but his eyes were droopy and he felt weathered and distraught.

“Where could they have gone?” he would ask himself. Kangaroos never stray; it was a mystery to him. The crooked pine bush was his last hope. Maybe they had found their way back there, and maybe he could he could jubilantly end his journey where it had began.

To get to the pine bush, Bobby had to pass the prison where he used to be held. When the outskirts of the jail appeared on the horizon, he shuddered. Though it was atypical of a kangaroo, he decided to veer off his path to avoid coming close to the prison.

Bobby had just hopped past the jail yards and was a mere one-hundred-fifty-seven paces from the pine bush when he heard a shouting from the distance.

“Stop right there!” a fumbling guard yelled from behind him.

Bobby was not going to submit willingly this time, so he picked up the pace and continued northward. He was huffing and wheezing and hopping as fast as he could when something snared him from below and he fell flat on his wet black nose. When he came to, he was being read his rights.

“Bobby the Kangaroo, you are under arrest for being too adventurous. You have the right…”

“One hundred and fifty seven paces. One hundred and fifty seven paces…” Bobby couldn’t stop thinking about how close he might have been, about how worried his boys must be, about how cruel of a joke life seemed to be.

The jailbirds were roaring and applauding as Bobby was being ushered to his cell. “Bobby’s back!” they yelled. “Look how big he’s gotten… my money’s on Bobby this time!” one said.

Bobby glanced at Old-timer as he passed his cell. He had grown even skinnier, and a broken cigarette hung languidly from the corner of his lips. “Your boys is here,” he said. “Rob and Bobby Jr., cell D-1. Good to see, good to see you Bobby.”

“My boys!” Bobby gasped. He broke free from the grip of the guards and hopped, arms cuffed behind his back, to their cell.

They sat in opposite corners of their cell, their ears flopped over their closed eyes. “Rob! Bobby Jr.!” Bobby shouted at them, and they squinted up at him.

“Boys, what are you doing here?”

“Daddy!” Rob sputtered. “Daddy, they arrested us for staying in one spot for too long! We waited, you don’t know how long we waited–”

Rob was interrupted by a loud thud that seemed to shake the building.

Outside, a row of kangaroos had splattered straight into the prison walls. A large congregation had come upon the prison and, by orders of their leader, (“Onward! A kangaroo does not change its path!”) had hopped straight against the wall. The other kangaroos followed suit. Row by row they splashed against one another, shaking the prison with each collision.

With the thunderous thud of the last row of kangaroos, which were the biggest of the kangaroo moms and the kangaroo dads, the prison walls began to cave in.

All of the guards had either dispersed or were crushed by the stones; the alarms were wailing and the prisoners were howling.

“Freedom! Freedom!” they proclaimed, but their cells remained intact, surrounded now by rubble and debris. Dozens of kangaroos trampled in rows over the remains while the prisoners bounced about in their cells in disarray.

Bobby fetched a set of keys from a pinned and lifeless guard and calmly unlocked his children’s cell. He hopped over to Old-timer’s cell and jostled the lock open. Old-timer laughed a hysterical, raspy laugh and hobbled away from the prison.

The jailbirds pleaded with Bobby as he and his boys hopped toward the other kangaroos.

“Let us out, Bobby! Let us out!”

A female kangaroo who had been separated from the group hopped up and over the debris. Bobby flung the keys into her little pouch and flipped her over his shoulders. “Northward,” he said, and the four kangaroos hopped away from the rubble.

The prisoners shouted as them as they shrank away into the distance. They were little nails with bobbing nailheads and then they disappeared into the mango sunset.

every passing glow

every passing glow
of headlights on the wall
assumes somehow
the shape of you

and every bit of white
that clings on as you
slide on into the night
is me somehow

Roulette

When the executioner was the only one
unconvinced of the killer’s guilt,
he pulled the switch

like rope on the pulley
of his own descending grave.
When the killer’s face began to appear

ruffled and out of place in his dreams,
he would wake up chilled
to the marrow,

his fingers
clutching the rope
that held the pendulum over his head.

//Yes, feeling Poe-like and gloomy! It probably would have been better-told in a story, but I didn’t feel like drawing it out. Just happy to be writing…

Eight-legged reverie

send the flies away
the jilted spider
shouted from the corner!

send away the gleam
that slides across
these silken threads!

the paint chips
mistaken
for snowflakes!

the smell of
glistening venom
in the morning!

leave me to weave
myself cocooned
until she returns!

the little widow!
winding the web
that unwound me.

Can’t Write

I can’t write.

I think the point I’ve reached is beyond writer’s block. I haven’t written anything of substance in months. What’s worse– the ideas, the inclination, the drive– it’s all still there, if not more so than before. I’m a wet rag desperate to spill over the sides, going on holding water anyway.

I sit down to write, and it’s painful. Writing a line of poetry right now is like trying to squeeze through a peephole feet first.

I need to be shook; I need a new dynamic, a new launch point. I start tomorrow– without any promises– thinking in earnest, objective terms of ways I can stop the paralysis.

I’m gonna make the muses stop snickering at me from behind the trees! That’s it. Objective and firmly grounded in reality.

(Help, please?)

Skimmers

I’m a little diamond in the sky
whittled away by acid rain

I’m a little teapot
left to steam…

//I’m still around here somewhere. Apparently not hospitable enough for the muses.

walk like a skeleton

march lightfooted in that porcelain frame
and fill the air with the sound of bones
against pavement, like a pair of dice
tossed on a block of ice.

the night is spotted with street-walkers
so keep that skull up, chum,
because here comes a breather now
who already looks as if he’s seen a ghost.

A Message Written in Sand

Dear Ocean,
Do not erase me.

I’m just here to mark
the spot where you showed
that the tip of every wave
is happiest as it falls.

Please bring a wanderer
before the wind carries me
grain by grain to the shore.

The Sleep Mowers

It all began when the Dentist woke up sprawled on top of his bed sheets, a pair of damp socks clinging to his feet, greened at the tips by grass stains as if a blooming moss had confused them with rocks. He would later step outside his house in bewilderment, awash in the summer sun, hoping to somehow retrace the steps he had made in his sleep. After only a few steps toward his driveway, he noticed that his lawn, which was overgrown just the night before, was perfectly and evenly trimmed.

A man not normally given to sleepwalking, the Dentist was profoundly confused by the happenings. He decided to share his story with his next-door neighbor, the Chiropractor, in search of some answers or assurances. The Chiropractor would shrug it off as an embellishment, laughing and suggesting that the Dentist try completing all of his chores in his sleep.

Abashed, the Dentist drained his mower of gasoline before going to sleep for the night.

Awoken in the morning by a loud, brisk knocking, the Dentist found at his doorstep the elated Chiropractor, who chokingly explained that he had mowed his lawn overnight without a minute’s recollection. He had even gone as far as to weed his yard, he would relate, although he stowed the trimmings in a half-full laundry hamper.

“Tonight I tackle the gardening,” he said.

**

The Dentist found it impossible to sleep the following night, restless and fidgety under his sheets, his mind abound with questions. If he could complete a task as intricate as mowing the lawn in his sleep, what would he try next? Was the Chiropractor lying about his lawn being mowed in his sleep, or had he actually done it; if so, what were the implications of the coincidence?

He peeked out his window periodically through the night, expecting to see the sleepwalking Chiropractor pulling flowers from his garden. He had staved off most the night without incident and was finally nodding off to sleep when he heard a mower cord being pulled.

He immediately looked toward the Chiropractor’s lawn only to see darkness; the noise was coming from a neighbor on his other side. He threw on his bathrobe and stepped onto his front porch to see his other next-door neighbor, the Banker, mowing his lawn laggardly with a flashlight-mounted helmet. He watched in marvel as the Banker rounded his lawn, leaving his mower haphazardly on the driveway and lumbering back into his house.

He visited the Chiropractor in the morning, visibly shaken and distraught, relating with urgency what he had seen and hypothesizing meanings behind the coincidences. He suggested that the sleepwalking could spread throughout the block, and that the neighborhood could go as far as to mobilize in their sleep, and that they should take measures to stop the matters before they got out of hand.

The Chiropractor was unresponsive to the Dentist’s distress. He was more concerned about the fact that he hadn’t achieved anything in his sleep the night prior.

“Be happy that you’ve started a neighborhood trend, and tell me again your mindset before you went to sleep the night you mowed,” he said.

**

In the coming nights the Dentist would become a makeshift insomniac, lying in wait for the terrible sound of a mower cord scraping against a metal shell in the middle of the night. The Accountant mowed the night after the Banker, followed by the Stock Broker who afterwards would sleep sprawled between his driveway and his yard.

Eventually the neighborhood would tend to their yards in their sleep like clockwork, everyone but the Dentist emerging from their homes in the night’s solstice to trim or to pick or to mow. The Dentist, going on a week without rest, swore he even saw them wave at one another from across the street as they labored in their sleep.

Growing more detached and fearful, the Dentist would stop answering the door for his neighbors who brought pies, flowers and cookies as tokens of gratitude for inciting the neighborhood phenomenon.

He visited the Chiropractor with a final plea: they were the only hope, he explained, for saving the neighborhood from unconscious insanity. He proposed that they stay awake through the night to go from house to house, shaking the sleepwalkers to awakening.

“There never was or will be any harm in mowing a lawn, and I swear if you awaken me I will turn the mower on you,” said the Chiropractor.

**

As night fell, the shivery Dentist began packing his essentials to leave his home and neighborhood. This proved to be a difficult task, scatterbrained and dejected as he was; he would repeatedly change his mind, deciding it was best to stay and try to sleep in his own bed, only to begin packing again. The sound of a mower cord splitting the night’s silence finally set him in to motion and out the door.

As he stepped outside, the neighborhood was coalescing for their nighttime yard work around him. He stopped for a moment to watch the Psychologist in the distance, who was fumbling with a ride mower in his driveway. The mower started and propelled him unexpectedly into the road; he would regain his composure and continue to ride slowly beside the curb.

The Dentist set down his suitcase and stared in wonderment as the Psychologist chugged off into the distance, shrinking and finally disappearing into the darkness.

Knowing that the Housewife wouldn’t realize where her husband had gone the next morning, the Dentist decided that he could not in good conscience leave town without waking her or someone else to explain what had happened.

He began walking toward the Housewife’s home, interrupted repeatedly in mid-step by the eerie sound of a sleepwalker groaning or pulling something from the earth. He found himself pacing up and down his driveway, jittery and withdrawn, each second committed to something new.

He would decide eventually on the mower, a sense of appeasement washing over him as he pulled the cord one, two, three times in the dark.

A rough draft… I haven’t written a short story in nearly a year; I’ve been fixated on poetry.

Best man

I’m the guest of honor at every abandoned party,
the father of every runaway bride.
Sometimes I wonder

as I groom myself for nothing,
is it worth it?

If nothing else there are funerals
I tell myself, and by and by
I go searching for them,

somehow seconds late for the service
as the mourners file into their cars

deaf to my sorrys
which are doused in the rain
that begins to fall like jester dust.

//a work in progress.